So my previous post was a bit DESPERATE, don’t you think?
I was in a pretty pathetic and desperate state of mind.
But today is another day and I’ve got some repairs to make.
I am happy to say I slept a good 10 hours that night. Something I definitely needed. Not napping created the crash and burn effect I needed to restart my clock. I’ve been eating better and taking my meds ON TIME, and at least TRYING to get on a better if not normal sleep schedule.
The morning after was tough and slow going. I had a very heavy patch of brain fog going on and it lasted quite a while too. But that was to be expected and I just made my way through it.
When life gets you down do you wanna know what you’ve gotta do? Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming. - Dory, ” Finding Nemo “
When I woke up the next morning, I decided to take a ME DAY!
…and now I am thinking maybe it’s more like a ME WEEK. ….or 2 ….ish.
I really need to pick up some pieces and get back on track. Because believe it or not I was somewhat on track. Really, I was! December went fairly well for me in terms of getting things done.
As the holidays approached, I was able to Christmas shop, get my house back together, decorate, and celebrate with family and friends, but not without the HUGE, HUGE, HUGE help I got from Ron. (…and Leon too). Thank you, my loves!
All the clutter found a home or else it went into the trash. We cleared away piles of stuff that we really did not need any longer. And while there was/is still more work to be done, we were able to make our living space, livable and our workspace, workable again.
We decorated the house and the beautiful Christmas tree that Ron and Leon went out and chopped down, during the Annual Oldfield Christmas Tree Hunt. The house was finally a warm and welcoming place again. Everything looked so beautiful and inviting. AND PEACEFUL.
The lights are my least favorite part of decorating the tree
Awww fiddlesticks - half the tree lights don't work
We spent Christmas Eve at home with our family, both Ron’s and mine came for dinner (17 of us in total). And the thing that amazed me the most about it was how relaxed I felt. Tired, but relaxed. Finally!!!
I love taking out my china for the holidays, it makes me feel like I'm almost a grown-up.
Can you see the tree in the next room?
I realized it was because my house was full of the people I love and who love me, AND because Ron and I had put so much effort into putting order back into our home.
Like mother, like daughter
She's waiting for Omi to cave, an hand over the chocolate.
You blow boy!!! In a good way!
The Angel and the Devil, but which is which?
Much of the week that followed Christmas, was spent relaxing in the glow of the Christmas lights, watching Leon play with all his new toys. We spent some time visiting with family, Leon got to go ice skating (can you imagine me on skates, HA!), and we took our traditional trip into NYC to see the tree in Rockefeller Center and check out the Christmas Window Displays. We ended our winter break and the year at the home of a dear friend watching the Doctor Who marathon. It was a wonderful little staycation for all of us, and it certainly ended the year nicely.
Leon and like a third of Grandma's Christmas Village
Our Tree! The lights flying off to the side are actually being pulled by Santa in his sleigh and his 8 tiny reindeer.
Leon and his Christmas haul! It was a very Merry Skylander Christmas!
Now in the midst of all that activity, I had made one big mistake. I ran out of refills for my Cymbalta and kept forgetting to contact the doctor’s office. So for about a week-ish leading up to when I completely snapped (see previous post) I was off meds. No wonder I had been such a WRECK! – DUH!
But NOW, I AM doing better,
So to those of you who reached out, THANK YOU! AND I LOVE YOU TOO!
I am feelin’ better, so no worries. But I need to take some ME TIME.
So… I am not ignoring you. I am just under repairs, ….and probably not answering the phone, …or emails.
But I loves ya!!
Oh and Happy Christmas, Season’s Greetings and a Joyful New Year to all!